Wednesday, January 19, 2011

New Year

I cannot believe that I only did 5 posts last year!!!  I have been busy, but not that busy!  I won't waste a whole lot of time saying that I am going to do better.  I will try to do better this year.

I feel as though I have been walking in the wilderness since David and I first met.  I long to hear from the Lord for direction and purpose.  Yes, I know that being a wife and mother are fulfilling part of that purpose, but it does not satisfy all that is within my soul.  I must confess that I thought moving to Dalton would unveil some real big purpose in my life.  How unrealistic of me to put such expectations on moving or Dalton?!  Needless to say, very little has been revealed.  I have three of the sweetest children that a mother could ask for.  Samuel is tender and kind.  Emma is zealous and passionate.  Sophia is hungry (and I mean more than just belly hungry), tempered with patience.  All characteristics that I would love to have!  However, being their mother alone is not all that God has called me to be.  So how do I find that?  Is it in God's word alone?  Am I not hearing Him in the quiet places of my heart?  Do I even have any quiet places so that I can hear Him?  Being a wife of a pastor is no small task.  I have his burdens that I carry with him, 3 innocent souls to protect.  Do I really have time of my own?  I ask, all while knowing that I need time for myself, it is expected, it is necessary, and it is desired!  So, I am going to sort it out on here.  I hope that as I share with you about the children and their milestones, I will also make time to share with you what I have been graveling with in my own faith.  May this new year find you all blessed and filled with excitement for what the Lord has done, is doing, and going to do.