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The Winner Is...

 

Well this year's pumpkin contest proved to be a little difficult for the Gale family. The Blackwoods were the only ones to grow any pumpkins this year! They were just larger than a soft ball. It seems that the bees were not pollinating well this year in our yard, or anyone else's yard in our family. Unfortunately we did not discover what the problem was until it was too late to grow anything of any real size. Josh did not plant any pumpkin seeds, Daniel was able to grow a small upright vine with a few leaves, and Bobby and Nancy were able to grow a small vine with a female flower. Matt proved to be the most competition in the beginning because he had good strong vines with large leaves. However, he could not get his flowers to pollinate and his plant began to die in early October. Our vines got up to 20 feet long and produced many female flowers. We were able to grow the two pumpkins that you see in the pictures. However, the jack-o-lantern was grown by a gardener that attends our church. He graciously gave Samuel and Emma that pumpkin to carve for Halloween. It was a neat process to watch the pumpkins grow over the past 4 months. We are already talking about what we will do different next year. So the first place ribbon this year goes to the Blackwood family! Thanks to everyone who voted!

Life

 

This month has been passing by so quickly. It has been a while since I last blogged. I guess we have been adjusting to the changes in our lives, and trying to not dwell on the empty arms that we will have in April. With that said, our lives are continueing to be enriched by the children that we do have. Samuel turned 3 this month, and yes I will put up pictures in the next post, and Emma will turn 15 months at the end of the month. Samuel has already had his 3 year check up and everything looked great. He is 33lbs, which I cannot believe because he is so skinny, and 38 1/2in tall. He is a motor mouth! I have never seen a child talk so much! I am afraid to say that it must be genetic. He is in preschool three days a week to help him get some children interaction. He loves it. He asks to go see Ms. Tina, his teacher, and his friends. He is crazy about Emma, but loves to aggravate her! He is a very protective big brother, but I have noticed that he smiles now when I get onto Emma! He also has decided that he can tell her "no ma'am" as well. Emma is all girl and definitely packing an attitude. I love it! She is fiesty and does not mind telling you "no" as well as pointing her finger while doing it. I believe she has seen someone do that before. She has a sweet disposition and will smile at anyone. She is my snuggler of the two. Samuel will lay with me in the evenings to watch television, but she will snuggle up to me any time of the day. Emma is walking and running everywhere. She is a little different than Samuel in that she will roam around the house on her own, and play by herself. Both children are growing so fast! The pictures above are mostly of the kids or Emma playing with baby dolls. Emma will play with a doll for the longest time, wrapping it up in a blanket and then snuggling with it. One night they each had one and Samuel informed me that they were Alex and Ava, his new twin cousins. They were so cute playing together. I know that one day Samuel will not find this too funny, so I that is why I need to post it now! Oh, and Samuel can say three Bible verses right now, as well as sing a blessing for the food. Emma babbles through a round of "Twinkle Little Star", which is the cutest thing. I am hoping to post some videos soon. Thankfully, all is well in the Blackwood home. We are pursuing God with all that we have, for in Him is our hope and trust.

Apple Pickin' Time

We had a fun filled weekend with lots of different things going on. The children got to stay up late to see their daddy Wednesday night because they really had been missing him now that he is gone weekly to seminary. Samuel especially enjoyed that. Once we finally got them to bed, we caught up on the week and enjoyed our time together. Thursday and Friday we did a variety of things around the house. When I write that the kids missed their father, it is to no exaggeration. They wanted him all weekend long. I was able to get my haircut on Friday and have a girl's night out at Starbucks. David and I watched "The Proposal" that evening. The most enjoyable thing we did was take the kids to Ellijay to an apple orchard. Samuel was so excited to be able to pick apples straight from the tree. As my father likes to say, it made for a great science project. I believe that it is good for children to be able to see where things come from and how they grow. After he picked apples, we enjoyed many of the amusements that they had at the orchard. We took advantage of the photography opportunity and snapped many photos! We rode on a wagon, Samuel rode some tricycles, milked a cow, walked a nursery rhyme themed nature walk, played on a playground, and had fun with a huge slide. It was a very cold day, but the kids did great. It was some of the best time we have had together as a family. Now that Emma is getting older, we are able to do more things, which has been very nice. We ended our time there with apple cider and a funnel cake! That evening ended with fried green tomatoes! On Sunday we had a nice meal and Samuel and I made cookies with Reese's pb cups. They were delicious! Unfortunately our weekend is now over, and David is back off to school, but we are already planning next weekend. It is nice to be able to enjoy some of the festivals that are going on with family. My little family is growing up so fast, almost too fast!

 

 

 

Heaven is Big Enough

I was just told recently about a seminary professor who was having a conversation with his class. It was on the issue of souls and heaven, and someone asked about the souls of so many babies that are lost to miscarriage. He simply smiled and responded, "I think that Heaven is big enough." It is with the heavy heart that I make this next post. I find great comfort in the words "Heaven is big enough." David and I found out a few weeks ago that we were expecting "Baby #3" as we like to call it. We already had names ready! We waited to tell our families because we wanted to enjoy the first few weeks with just the family. Little did I know that the special time that David and I had would be our only time.

I began to miscarry this past weekend and am still in the process as I write this. I curled in a ball and cried as my husband held me when it began. My disbelief that this was happening was made into a reality when we went to the doctor on Monday. I will spare you all of the physical details because that's not what I want to write about. Just please pray that this will pass quickly from me, for it is a constant reminder of the baby that I will never hold. The eyes that I will never wipe tears away from. The bumps and bruises that I will never get to kiss. I never knew the kind of sorrow and pain that women experienced after a miscarriage, and to be honest it takes knowing someone very closely to even understand a little of what they are going through. My heart is breaking. There are a lot of ways to try to make sense of this, but that's not what I want. Loosing a baby does not make since, whether they are miscarried, stillborn, or die outside of the womb at whatever age. We live in an imperfect world where these things happen. I am not concerning myself with the why's, but rather where I go from here. How do I mourn the loss of someone that I know so well but for such a short amount of time, but never met? It is hard because there is no body to bury, there is no service to be held. No one sits on the couch and cries with us, but those that are really close to us. People may try to say that we never knew this child, or maybe it never developed. To us, this was a child, our third child that we did know if only for a short season. I still hurt, but everyone else moves on.

I feel an emptiness in the pit of my stomach. A sickening kind that won't let up. It does not offer me hope to think that maybe this protected us from something that could be worse. Maybe that is just for now, and my heart will change later. Please do not see me as being rude, but as a mother who is suffering loss. I wish that I could better explain the emptiness that I feel. Just know that it is a dark, deep, barren place. One where only the Lord can find me.

I am leaning heavily on David, and Jesus is having to carry us both. But His arms are strong! David is at a loss for words, but yet can find a lot to say. Please pray for him, that God will give him a grace on his words. David is angry. He was so excited about this baby. He has been ready for another child since April. He feels the loss of a child, and aches for his wife. This is a very different and difficult place. We are holding on to each other tighter than ever before. Please pray that our marriage will be even better as we walk through this valley. We are keeping the lines open and communicating the best that we can right now. We will be placing something on Dixon's grave as a memorial. I hope that this will bring closure, which I so desperately need.

You may want to know what we need right now. We need you to be graceful with your words. Please guard our hearts as you speak to us. I know that this will not last forever, just please remember that though we never held or saw him, our baby was very real to us and so is the loss. Please pray that I will physically heal quickly. It will take a few more days to clean out and then a couple of weeks to normalize hormonally. I am going to begin training with David and preparing for the half-marathon. Please pray for my family, because I know that they are not sure how to respond. They hurt because I hurt but only found out we were pregnant as I was going to the hospital. They never had time to even celebrate with us. Pray that as we walk through this, God will show us how to rejoice and praise Him all the more.

This has not shaken our faith but is making us stronger. I love the Lord more today than ever before. I am not angry with Him. He is not the creator of evil, but of good things. I am thankful that God knows how I feel, and His tears are even bigger than mine. A heart that can hold such a perfect love most definetly can mourn with me who is not perfect. David reminds me that through that love, I will hold our baby one day and that he is in a state of flawless perfection. So though I hurt right now, I have the hope of salvation! I will probably write more later, but this is a very rough writing of what is going on with us. Just know that I am thankful that Heaven is big enough for you and for me. We will be okay, and God's love is washing over us wave after wave. For now, I must bask in that love as my heart begins to heal.

The Pumpkin Contest Continues!

We are around 2 months from the day of our big pumpkin contest. I have reports that most plants are doing well. I don't have any pictures to post of what the plants look like currently, but I do have some of Samuel transplanting ours a few weeks ago. Samuel was such a big helper and carried the plants in his wheel barrel from our porch to the "pumpkin patch". He is very excited to watch them grow, and loves to help water them. This has been a neat experience because he is learning to take care of something other than himself, and he is learning about how things grow. Hopefully I will post some more pictures up in a couple of weeks.

Birthday Party Number 3

I don't have any pictures yet, but I am going to go ahead and posts this. I will add the pictures later. I was with Emma, so I couldn't take any pictures. My aunts were kind enough to throw a birthday party for Emma and my cousin's little girl who turned 2 in Savannah. They treated the girls like princesses. They were so cute! I am thankful to have such loving family. They truly made it a special first birthday! I will posts the pictures once I get them emailed to me.

Birthday Party Number 2

I know that this is really late posting, but I had to put these pictures up because Emma is just too cute! These are from a second birthday party that we had for Emma with church members and David's family.

Birthday Party Number 1

Emma's first birthday party was in Irwinton with mostly my family and David's grandparents. Josh took Emma outside and made some pictures. Below are some of them. We had a nice day and a lot of fun.




Samuel and I made Emma's cake this year. I am not sure if I will ever do this again, but it was fun! We were up past midnight working on it! I was having trouble icing it because it kept crumbling! Oh well!



Emma enjoying her cake (in reverse order). She dug right into the cake! I had to take it away because she was eating way too much!






Emma got a lot of great things. She got a Dora soft-foam chair, a beautiful wooden rocking chair, a baby doll, some clothes, money, and a top designer (Uncle Matt) toy box.

Happy Birthday Emma!

Happy Birthday Emma! Emma turned one year old July 25. We celebrated with three different parties; two with family and one with our church. It is hard to believe that a year has already passed. She has changed and grown so much over the past year. Emma is now taking steps but gets to excited to really walk yet. She starts to walk but smiles and falls down. I think she is just being silly. I believe that she is very close to walking though. She can make the cutest lion sounds, as well as dog and cat noises. She loves baby dolls. She knows how to give them a pacifier and bottle! Emma also recognizes girly clothes in stores and cries for them! She loves to laugh and play with Samuel. Please don't think for a second that just because she is younger she gets pushed around. She is an instigator and hard headed. Therefore Samuel gets into a lot of trouble that she started and she can hold her own in a fight. She has four teeth, with four more very close to coming in. She is a biter! However, Emma is beautiful on the inside and out. She will stroke people's arms in the most loving way. She gives the sweetest kisses, and when she sees that it makes you happy she will give more. Emma is crazy about Samuel and very protective. She gets upset if he is hurt. Samuel does the same for her. She is drinking whole milk from sippy cups, and learning to feed herself. For her first year checkup everything looked great. She weighs 22lbs 7oz (75%) and is 31in long (+95%). Emma is healthy and making all of the right milestones. We are so thankful to have such a beautiful, little girl in our lives. I know that God has Emma right where she is supposed to be, and our family is better for it.


Emma around 2 1/2 months old.

Sleeping Cozy, Again!

This is an addition to a post that I did earlier. My little angel is a total bed hog. She moves all over the bed throughout the night. Apparently, even the bed is not always enough room for her. We were at my parents house visiting, and this is how we found her one evening.

Peace Maker

We have a new cat. Mister Fat Cat joined our family this past week when he showed up at our front door (literally). He is so pathetic looking right now. He is scrawny and only has one ear! The doctor thinks that he will be a big cat eventually, hence his name. Bella is still trying to adjust to him being around, but with Samuel's help they should be just fine. He gets on to Bella when she swats at him, and will put MFC right in Bella's face. The picture below is the two cats with Samuel in the middle, petting them both at the same time. I must say that Samuel is quite the peace maker, because the two cats have been doing much better since he has done all of this.

Mister Fat Cat's current sleeping spot!

Freedom

We enjoyed a good July 4, spending it with our church family. We went to a local fairground and sold home-made ice cream and corn dogs. The kids came out later in the evening with their Nana. It was nice to have her up for a couple of days so that she could spend some time with the kids and us. We also had a nice church service and the kids looked festive in their red, white, and blue. Enjoy the pics below!











Samuel wanted to help cook, so we got a few pictures of him in the kitchen. I am not exactly sure where his pants were!